Wednesday, October 26

I'd Be Lying If

I have a confession to make. Things in my life totally blow right now. This space is my happy place. I can come here and it's safe to express and share things that make me happy, things I love, and that I'm inspired by. If you know me in real life you know how precious this space is for me. I need it.

I feel like my posts have been lackluster on most days. There are a few that I enjoyed writing but those have been few and far between. So I feel like I need to be honest with you guys, as my readers you deserve it.

For the past 4 months my bronco has been broken. That means I've been stuck at home. Literally. In my town there is no walking unless you live directly in town, which we don't. My house has become my prison (good Lord that sounds dramatic). I love alone time, I need it. But I thrive on going out into the world and seeing people, visiting my favorite places and finding new gems. I have people in my life that love me enough to come and visit me or take me away for coffee or general errands that I need to run, and I'm SO thankful for that. A few days ago, after we had some work done on the bronc, I got it back and it actually worked! I was just allowing myself to hope after a couple of glorious days of freedom that things would work out with it. And then it died again. And then I broke.

I really can't describe to you this feeling in my heart but, I'm sad all of the time. I'm going through the motions of life, I'm uninspired, and I don't want to do anything. That is not me. I'm the type of person who likes to be busy making pretty things or meeting new people or taking photos... not stuck at home with no way to leave. In the past two days our other two vehicles have also broken down - the motorcycle this morning while Andrew was on his way to work. I wonder if there is some kind of sick joke being played on us?

I feel like I need to apologize to you guys. Because of all this mess I'm not blogging the way I should be. I'm hoping to get out of this slum really soon. I think one way is to continue using this as my happy place and moving forward with making things that I think are lovely just to make them for the smile they bring.

Please keep bearing with me during this time, I can't tell you know much your comments and emails me to me. You guys are part of what keeps me going! And if you made it though this post you deserve a star and a crown. Maybe I'll work on making those ;-) 

xo Shannon


Messy said...

Oh Shannon!!!!! I am so sorry things are so sucky right now. :( I hear ya sista!!! Try and keep telling yourself that even though things keep going wrong, and nothing is working out, they always HAVE to start to look up again. Remember the last time this happened and when things started to turn around the glorious feeling you had. It will happen again!!!!! Hope the Bronco makes it!

Sara Reeves said...

Oh my sweet friend I feel for you. I'm going through similar feelings which I'm working on a post about tomorrow. Luckily not the cars this time, but I totally understand your feelings. My home is my sanctuary, my nest, one place I can let all inhibitions go, but when you're stuck there for days on end by force rather than choice, it really wears on you. Especially for us adventurous souls. Although I do feel uninspired at times too, when it comes to blogging, I feel like when you push through it always feels good to be able to connect with others. And I really hope your car situation improves soon friend.


Lo Hood said...

Aww Shannon! I'm sorry that things haven't been so great lately! That really stinks about your car...I can see how that would make you feel that way! I always get inspiration from blogs that I love..journaling or looking at clothing/items for new fun DIY's. Good luck missy! Chat me up if you ever need me!

Amylou said...

Girl I have been through this so much, and in a way I'm feeling stuck right now in a different way! Hang in there! Keep making beautiful things! It really does make the day just a hint better! And if you need to talk, I definitely can email back and forth with you!
p.s. I will be emailing you soon about the promised guest post!

Ashley @ said...

<3 you, miss. Going to send you an email here shortly.

cb said...

i wish i could fly all the way to you and give you a big hug. i know what you mean honey, i really do. being home all the time would drive me nutso after a while. is there any way you can ride a bike around to get where you need to be? have you maybe checked craigslist in your area to see if anyone is willing to do a trade for one of your cars? i hope all gets better for you. sometimes technology really really needs to get better so we can teleport places without having to drive.


Alli (One Pearl Button) said...

Argh, I'm so sorry that things have been hard. Don't worry - everyone has crappy times, and it's totally okay to recognize this time as crappy. Focus on what you need to feel better, and know that it won't last forever. Your blog (and readers) will be here when you feel like posting.

Marlee Bourey said...

Can I just say, on a (kind of) related note, how awesome it is to see all these other people who love you? It makes me feel a little less awful about living so far away. ;)

Let's skype soon, k? Tonight if you wanna!

I love you, CQ. Soooo much. And if all else fails, I will come and fix your Bronco by sheer will power soon. THAT is a promise.

apockylypse said...

Oh, my husband & I completely understand how you feel sweetie. He's been stuck at home for months now because we've been down to 1 working car [but since he's unemployed right now I need the car to get to my job]...then that car had issues. I was 'lucky' enough to be able to borrow my mom's car [lovingly known as the 'ghetto sled']. Being stranded really wears on your more than you know...until it actually happens to you.

I'll be keeping my fingers crossed that vehicles get magically fixed & stay that way. If you ever need to vent & don't want to on the blog, you can always shoot me an email!

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kat said...

I understand how you feel. We are a one vehicle family and I'm stuck in the house most days with the girls. It's enough to make me want to pull my hair out. On top of that we really don't know anyone here yet (it's pretty sad because we've been here for a year) so we don't have any rescuers at the moment. I think your posts have been wonderful lately! Your blog is one of my favorite stops! I hope things start looking up! <3

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